my coffee break

the taste of my everyday coffee...

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i listen to every conversation that takes place. more expressing, less talking, more to listening. Italy takes my breath away. my boyfriend is a Greek. well, as if. i will just as well lie. please, do sit. have a coffee with me and i will tell you a story. i will tell you about me...

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Invisible link

oh yeah. before my memory anyone of you who had linked me...thanks!

you may prolly wonder why i didn't link you. but i did. you may not be able to see my links because it is invisible. well. take care now.

New Year Eve

i slept at 12 a.m. woke up at 10 a.m. had breakfast. played PS2. surfed the net. and brushed my teeth at 1p.m. or maybe 2p.m. or maybe i didn't brush at all! *eyes wide open* that's because all i do is stay at home and become miss lonely. that is for the year 2005.

i just got back from a wedding. it was great. i met my old classmate and schoolmate. i just found out that my old classmate when i was 13 years old is already engaged. he's cute. great friend. i'm happy for them. i missed the "kampung" style. i guess everyone is drunk. we were dancing around. imagine my dad, my mum, me and all the kampung gang. funniely fun. only if they were drunk. haha!

and so tomorrow will be a new year. a new beginning.
i'm looking forward for 2006. i will be reborning again tomorrow.

1. get my photo taken
2. send in my resume
3. go for interview
4. get that job
5. start my job
6. earn money
7. buy a new cellphone


Friday, December 30, 2005

I.E is a joke

just hanging around for awhile.

i started to dislike Internet Explorer. i viewed my site in IE and it's a joke.
use Mozilla or Safari...

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Christmas photo

as i promised a photo. taken in Beff's house :

Theresa, Cassandra, Beverley, Stephenie, Avila

my father is a reckless driver.
i am too young to die.
till my next update.

Monday, December 26, 2005

well...since it is still December 26th...allow me to speak my mind about...everything that is anything. not that all of you will take time and read my uninteresting post if you may call it. one at all. but somehow it is fun reading what you have posted. and so you will prolly laugh and say "did i say that? ooohh..this....ah, those days...i can't believe i actually posted this..." and so you smile and you laugh. alone. like an idiot.

i am actually bored. REALLY really have nothing to do. i wished i go to Roy's. but i bailed him. and i feel bad. and now it is raining. i wish it snow instead of rain. being alone at home...with nothing to a tragic. everyone love leaving me stranded in this bella casa. lo odio! i learnt a new word...the meaning of calcetto is soccer, which is 5 versus 5.

so i am on my MSN...and someone asked me :

"...can i flirt with you?"

can you flirt with me? funny. anyways...i learnt that Tuscany is a region of Italy. and that the most important city in Tuscany is Florence. it is the most famous and important cultural town. and it is the place of Leornado da Vinci, Michelangelo and all reinassance, artistic, poethries, monuments! interesting isn't it.

*sigh* il cielo pullula di stelle. i just have to choose and pick the right one. for some reason i need un segno di Dio. ohhh...and it just struck me now at this very moment. bazatan zou! having to remember that particular night. nokuo ti??! ih feeling zou...? ishh. moluar guangku. okon ko moluor guangku because of somebody has hurt my feelings. tapi sabab ih zou sondiri. i guess i think somehow, you just have to hate yourself so much.

Under the Tuscan sun

"believing in miracles, i give you my number, who knows it? maybe you can send me a message, or a short call..."

i wish. if only i had a cellphone. but nothing feels better than leg of lamb. a traditional Christmas dish. last night was great. celebrating Christmas in Beverley's and being Mr and Mrs Foo "adopted child". fun. photo will be posted after i get it from Beff. ( for anyone who cares to view. i care. it is indeed priceless. )

anyways, i have alot of books to read. and currently reading Under the Tuscan sun. it is...well...different from the movie. not slightly different. but big different. as it has been said by other readers. but i think both are nice. giving you different angles of the story and i still have four more books to read :

1. Soul Mountain by Gao XingJian
2. Too little, too late by Colette Caddle
3. Much ado about nothing by William Shakespeare
4. Othello by William Shakespeare
...and more to come.

sometimes i wonder why people...if not all, some...don't like reading. they just missed the beautiful journey of every pages...and no. i guess you do not need to be inspired or so to inspire. just by reading, gives out a wonderful sensation of atmosphere. with a cup of coffee...nothing feels better.

getting ready to Roy's house.
[Edit (6.59pm) : no i am not going to Roy's house. i'm so sorry Roy]

[Edit (7.31pm) : oooo...and a Happy Boxing Day]

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Everyone
Merry Christmas Everyone

~till my next coffee break~

Saturday, December 24, 2005

why am i here talking?

Christmas Eve

ah yes...i was wondering and wandering around. up to down and down to up. i wandered and i wandered and so i wandered. we really need new shops. almost every shop sells the same old stuff. and at last. i bumped into him. of all the people. and yes it was nice to see you again. how do you do? *shake hands*

finally i bought Under the Tuscan sun. after walking in and out of five bookstores in town. geez, they really need to open new bookstores here in KK. i think that Iwase Bookstore is the best. Popular is a joke since they are "the biggest" bookstore in town, they should have Under the Tuscan sun. but no. they don't. i wonder wheter they (whoever they are) are going to open MPH since new malls are coming. and i mean a REAL bookstrore selling real books like KL bookstores. ah about "are coming". do you know that U.K Fun Fair is coming to town? it's already in town. already putting up and building up all those ferris wheel and others. yeah. carnival is in town. and so i am thinking of swimming tomorow. it's been a long time since my last exercise. i need to build up some muscles after realizing that is the only way i can gain weight other than eating. don't you just hate having high metabolism?

hahaha. my first gift on Christmas Eve is sandals from Neneng. i just opened it. seconds ago. well...till my next break. soon. i have ice cream to finish.

[ Music | O christmas tree by Miles Davis ]

Friday, December 23, 2005

oh...oh ho ho ho...

if i am so smart, how come i don't know?

thank you, anyways.

thanks to Sing Yee for Trans Siberian Orchestra.

[ Music | Christmas jazz by Trans Siberian Orchestra ]

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Why does it happen?

there are more questions on earth than there are answers. and the world itself is a mystery. history repeats itself. civilized becoming uncivilized. there are more sorrows than happiness. more are dying and so are dead. those survive are left to stay, to live and to witness as the world falls apart. to suffer more than those who had suffered. some say it kills to live. others say it is indeed a blessing to live for another day. the world is corrupting. the earth is trembling. the sea is waving goodbye and the sky is hiding.

*looking up the ceiling*
ever wonder why does it happen? how does it happen? what makes it happen? when does it happen...or when WILL it happen? who makes it happen? and so who are to blame?

it happened because there are reasons to it. things happen for a reason. or is it? what if there is no reason at all. what if it just happen and because it is meant to be happened? is it a sign? maybe. what are signs? what do you know about signs? how do you know? who cares? who cares to search for signs? me? you? does it matter? what if there are signs...but we never look. always we tend to pass by. and so who cares? we are so busy to even care. the world is so busy.

why, when, what, who and how? more questions, less one knows. no one really knows but He who suffered more and seen everything on earth. only the one knows.

and still, in the midst of everything lies a very interesting question.
is a circle really a circle?

down on my knees. i surrender...i had surrendered...i want to surrender.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005


i just realized that Frances Mayes writes beautifully good spoken books about her own self-experience. i beginning to like it. Tuscany. i have always love Italy. it is a perfect book for independent travelers. and so for non-travelers. Under the Tuscan somehow makes me think about my life, my family...but mostly me. *sigh* i love my mother so much. and my father? he is always away for a week or two and back home for a week or two...then away for a week or two...and...on and on. i missed him. i missed the father and daughter activities. when i was small, my father used to lift me up up the sky. like a bird. and now...he still lift me up but not as high as before. because i am heavy. *sigh* childhood memories...i guess i will always be their little one even when i'm in an adult age. even when i get married and have kids of my own. i will still be their little one...there is a quotation that goes "No matter what happens - always keep your childish innocence - it's the most important thing..."

*sipping coffee and smiles*
i got that from the movie of Under the Tuscan sun.
good books good quotations.

Between Austria and Italy, there is a section of the Alps called the Semmering. It is an impossibly steep, very high part of the mountains. They built a train track over these Alps to connect Vienna and Venice. They built these tracks even before there was a train in existence that could make the trip. They built it because they knew some day, the train would come...
-Martini, Under the Tuscan Sun (2003)-

till my next coffee break.

Monday, December 19, 2005

The new beginning

i wish it snow here. anyways, i've deleted all my entries. so it's holiday. it's the middle of December. and soon it will be 25th.

Happy Holiday and Happy Christmas, everyone.

*sigh*...nothing feels better than a cup of coffee. enjoy your coffee people. till my next update.