my coffee break

The end of cookies and coffee

2006-07-31T16:07:00.001+08:00

i am moving again.

i have moved to TRAVEL & COFFEE

this blog is officially closed.

thank you!

do you see what i see......

2006-06-24T10:32:00.000+08:00

do you see what i see?

i guess not...

a quick update here...

so..wow Vila! where have you been hiding?!

yesterday, i went to MidValley doing my solo shopping. for my room deco...

went in and out of Jaya Jusco and to my surprise i'm becoming a thief.

a security guard stoped me because the moment i stepped out of Jaya Jusco, the thing rang...like this ----> tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttt...

he opened my bag and took out everything and he is so nice to let me go. dammit!

ooo...i saw Richard Pelzer! i'm going to buy him! soon!

i don't think i'll be going to the pool party...i'm saving money for something big.

i bought Lat the Kampung Boy and will buy them again...

i watched Leon the Professional...and as usual i cried...

i am going to do my LAN assignment. urgh!

tonight i'll be watching Leon the Professional and cry again. oh and by the way, this is my new hobby...watch movie and cry.

kthxbye!

and you said it's COOL?

2006-05-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

cool? is that how you see it? cool?

*sigh*

no...no..it's not cool. it's indeed great and wonderful. not COOL.

but like you said...cool. *sigh* yes cool...

Now it's the time.

2006-04-28T12:23:00.000+08:00

i am moving to West soon.

i'll be living on my own soon.

i'll be leaving Kota Kinabalu soon.

i am going to venture to the other side of the country.

i am starting Uni soon. and thank God i got the offer.

thanks to Dayzeydoo for the KL Rail Transit map.

i'm not sure where i'll be staying...maybe Cyberjaya (will it be too far?) or maybe somewhere near to my campus.

maybe Millenium Court. yes, maybe. they have everything i need. the laundry, gymnasium, cafeteria and pool room. unlike My Apartment in Subang Jaya when i was in Taylor College. it sucks major.

i need a room that have 24hrs internet access.

and i am going to resign soon. yeah!!! no more working till 6.30pm!

i'll get back to this.

hello there

2006-04-20T08:05:00.000+08:00

stolen from dayze. like i said i job is to go around stealing stuff.

Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
no.

What would you do with 1000 plastic spoons?
keep them somewhere. hide them. i dont know. do nothing about it i guess.

What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
Spice Girl and also i love listening Sheila Majid the Malaysian Queen of Jazz.

What is the best thing about your current job?
it's relaxing and talking to customers.

Do you wish cell phone etiquette was required?
if there are...i dont think everyone will apply the phone etiquette in their daily life.

Are you against same sex marriage?
i have nothing against this.

How have you been in the past week?
good.

Where are you going on your next vacation?
no idea. i want to venture Malaysia.

Quote a song lyric.
you are so much more than arithmetic.

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
both.

Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
no. Sabah got IKEA meeehhhh??

Do you like your parents?
yes.

What state/country are you from?
Sabah, Malaysia.

Tell us about the last conversation you had?
a friend called asking me to go DIGI.

Where do you see yourself in one month?
not sure.

What is your favorite smell?
fresh smell.

What is the time and the outside temperature at the moment?
8.14am. will get sunny soon. now it's fine. not too hot.

Have you ever done anything vindictive to your co-workers?
no.

Have you ever gone to therapy?
no.

Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
no.

Have you ever Toilet Papered someone's house?
never. geezz.

Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
sure.

Have you ever gone camping?
yes.

Have you ever had a crush on your sisters friend?
no.

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
wow. no.

Have you ever had a stalker?
yes.

Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
hmmm....yes. ohh..no...yes..?

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
sure!

Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober one?
yes!

Have you ever been cheated on?
i dont want to know so i don't know.

Have you ever had sex with one of your Myspace friends?
no. don't have MySpace.

Have you ever felt betrayed by your bestfriend?
yes =[

Have you ever lied to your parents?
sure.

Have you ever thrown up from working out?
no.

Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?
no. i love evry haircut.

Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?
yes!

Have you ever gotten so wasted you didnt know what was going on?
yes.

Have you not realized what you had until you lost it?
yes.

What a fool...

2006-04-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

when watching this...i'm like =_=". WHAT ON EARTH??? "___, why do you do this to me? why??!!" the fuck is this?! Romeo and Juliet? odoiiiii...buang laut lah. funny. i pity you (the actress). it's just stupid. kthxbye!

Another drama

2006-04-03T19:27:00.000+08:00

my job is to go around and steal survey. stole this from adoraze =)

1. Do you like chinese food?
~ yes, i love.

2. How big is your bed?
~ single. big enough for one.

3. Is your room clean?
~ oh yes...cleeeeaaannnn =P

4. Laptop or desktop computer?
~ both? now using desktop.

5. Favorite comedian?
~ any stand up comedian. that is funny of course. if not, buang laut.

6. Sleep with or without clothes on?
~ with clothes on.

7. Who do you sleep with every night?
~ myself.

8. Do long distance relationships work?
~ depends. yes it does and no it doesn't.

9.How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
~ nil.

10. Pancakes or french toast?
~ both can do.

11. Do you like coffee?
~ yes!!! duh!

12. How do you like your eggs?
~ any kind.

13. Do you believe in astrology?
~ tricky. it's true sometimes. other time it's not. hmmm...guess not.

14. Last person you talked to on the phone?
~ my driving tutor.

15. Last person on your missed call list?
~ Yennie.

16. What was the last text message you received?
~ "vila i pick you up from work...by me food ah!" (from my brother)

17. mcdonalds or burger king?
~ both.

18. Number of pillows?
~ number of pillows i have you mean? ummm...one is enough.

19. What are you hearing right now?
~ none.

20. Pick a lyric, any lyric or song?
~ don't you ever wish you were someone else...you are meant to be, the way you are exactly...

21. What kind of jelly do you like on your sandwich?
~ jelly on my sandwhich? hmmm...

22. Can you play pool?
~ well...played before so yes.

23. Do you know how to swim?
~ yes!

24. Favorite ice cream?
~ any ice cream.

25. What color is your wallet?
~ black.

26. Tell me a random fact:
~ i wish she can be more serious towards her job. dammit. she sometimes annoy me.

27. Ever play spin the bottle?
~ no thanks. that's so...kiddish.

28. Ever attended a theme party?
~ yes =) "kampung night"

29. What is your favorite season?
~ i love spring.

30. Favorite quote?
~ "for things to change, you must change first"

31. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
~ yesterday.

32. What time did you wake up this morning?
~ 7.30 am.

33. Best thing about winter?
~ snow falling! DECEMBER! CHRISTMAS!

34. Last time a cop gave you a ticket?
~ nil.

35. Name of your first pet?
~ Lanna.

36. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
~ as in Johnny Depp the Pirates of the Carribean...yes...cool.

37. What do you usually do on weekends?
~ usually i watch tv...now i'm working.

38. What are you doing this weekend?
~ working. gahhhh...i suppose to go jungle trekking!

39. Are you desperate for anything right now?
~ yes...i'm desperately need to get out of this busy atmosphere!

oh no! the jungle trekking has been cancelled due to first...i can't get my days off...and second, it's palm Sunday! and you know what? YES! i'm working during palm Sunday. LOLA!!!! PUH-LEZZZZZ!!!!

I really want my 3 days off

2006-03-29T20:21:00.000+08:00

why...oh why! when something good i'd plan myself on doing...something MUST came up?! (i'm not even sure if my phrases are correctly arrange...and i don't give a damn).

i'm going for jungle trekking this April. but heck...i'm working now?! everyday! and i feel bad asking for days off since i just started my job. even though Lola is nice. i feel bad. and i WILL feel bad if i won't be able to jungle treck! if and IF i'm able to...i will feel bad too! because by April, Mary (my collegue) and I will be transfered to another Clara branch in Wisma Merdeka. and if i go...Mary will be alone dealing with customers. the phone...to the bank...the files...which are suppose to be my job. why oh why!

uffff...pfffttt!!

No no...this is so not cool.

2006-03-27T17:18:00.000+08:00

oh boy...i am starting my first job as a receptionist tomorrow. be my first customer. call me.

"hello, Clara International. Can i help you?"

the heck...starting a job is easy i guess. and so resigning. but asking for a day off...make it three days off is so not cool when you just started working. what a quick day off. Lola my boss, she's so funny and friendly. i like her already. i bet she'll give me three days off. and man! somemore i have to work on SUNDAY?! SUNDAY WOOOOO...how come?! adeiii...

2006-03-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Quoted from a book SOUL MOUNTAIN by Gao XingJian.

Chapter 8 : "Man follows earth, earth follows sky, sky follows the way, the way follows nature," he proclaims loudly. "Don't commit actions which go against the basic character of nature, don't commit acts which should not be commited."

i find this book really interesting. and so i need sometimes out from this busy atmosphere. in two weeks i am going for jungle trekking along the Crocker Range. what is that, you ask. oh geez, click me!

Checklist
1. sleeping bag
2. lotsa water
3. insect reppelent
4. salt...i hate leeches
5. hmmmm.....ooo. camera...will take lots of pictures
6. 2 or 3 pairs of clothing

i guess that's it. ooo..this too will be my first hunting! i will hunt!! YES!!!! till my next update

The other side of you

2006-03-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

i went funeral prayer.

did i just say thank you?!

i am not sure what mood i'm in now.

a second ago i was happily sleeping. then a second ago i wass frowning all the way. a second ago i went hahahaha. a second ago i went ------ silent.

so okay. i have variety of mood today. everyone does! geez.

my L license is on the way. i forget to thumb print my 3 hours.

jungle trekking on April for 3 days 2 nights.

ok. i must get out of this room once in awhile.

i have to find new interests.

si amore mio. anche tu sei bellisimo!

you are so beautiful to me. by Joe Cocker.

i just don't like doing things for people and at the end i get nothing.

no. i'm so not sincere :-P

sorry to whoever you are. i can't forward the UPU application online. because i waste more than an hour to figure what you want.

next time just do it yourself. stoop!

tingu!!! sepa yang susah!! now u don't have application loooo...sepa suruh!! badukang butul!

so...what do you have to do now?

SO...what am i suppose to do now?

i am going to read my Gao XingJian.

don't you just hate yourself sometimes.

are you confuse just as i am confuse right now?

are you aware that your lust is so sickening that i can puke over your Armani shirt?

are you aware that i am just pretending? pretending to be so into you that i am actually avoiding you?

ooo. ok...so you are telling me how you feel. frustrated you said.

ok. i'm here to listen if you want to talk about it.

i'm a good listener but i will not give profesional advise since i need it more too.

look. i appreciate you came over and talked to me about it. because that's something different from you =)

and yes. i want to see the other part of you. that something different.

till now. i'm not sure what you really are. who you really are. and what you really want. from me.

do make it clear. till then. my next update.

I am away but not for long

2006-03-10T08:40:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy. i'm busy lately. so didn't have the time tp update.

so i was busy and i'm still busy and going to be very busy again.

i'm redecorating my room.

i think i've develop a love for interior design. gah!

i went surveying in Wisma Merdeka yesterday for my room decos.

so i see some stuff that i love. will come back to Wisma.

i met Halizah my schoolmate since 2000-2003.

she's so pretty.

i love Oprah Show. love it! also Fashion Avenue in channel Travel and Living.

i love flip-flops a.k.a slippers a.k.a slipar jipun.

my room will be transform in 1 week. so no one is allowed to come into my room during the renovation.

i'll buy 2 turtles, 2 male hamster and maybe an iguana if i can find one.

mom thinking of going to Korea during spring. Really???!!

i'm going to gain more weight. more fats too =D

STPM on the 16th of March. oh God. i'm so ... speechless. so don't ask me for result.

i love the "Grey Hair Guy" from American Idol.

i pass Q&A driving test 47/50.

P/S i didn't read at all. i just memorize the questions and answers the night before the test. smart eh? *wink*

i'm going diving again. i hope.

ok. i'm going back to cleaning my room.

till my next update. busy busy busy.

Yes, i will. I will be...

2006-02-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

if it is important for you then it is important for me too...vivo per lui.

i've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead. i'll be your crying shoulder, i'll be love suicide, i'll be better when i'm older, i'll be the greatest fan of your life...and i will be.

my love is alive and not dead...
~Edwin McCain~

I've been tagged part 2 !

2006-02-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

the tagging game begins. i've been tagged by Anonymuis

Current time:
1.43pm

What are you wearing?
green shirt with bermuda pants.

Name something out of the ordinary on your desk:
out of the ordinary??? hmmm...a slurpy cup that has been on my table for like four days?

Current favourite song(s):
i'll be by Edwin McCain and Vivo Per Lei by Andrea Bocelli

Last thing consumed:
coffee!

Last phone call received:
oh gosh...my sim card is blocked! but the last call i recieved is from...mom.

Current annoyance:
that someone has been playing my cellphone and now it is blocked...

Plans for the day:
go to maxis or maybe call maxis to unblock my sim card. i should have write that PUK number somewhere but instead i save it IN my phone. how dumb!

I tag the following people:
-Sing Yee
-Brennan
-MR. LB
-Karl

The 1 minute before Valentine ends.

2006-02-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

one minute before Valentine's over in KK, i am engaged!

*gasp*

Happy (belated) Valentine's to all.

oh no...i'm not engaged ENGAGED =)

i had Virtual Dinner for Valentine.

we had dinner in an Italian castle up the hill.

candle dinner table. fettucine and great wine of Italy.

flowers. a red rose in the middle surrounded by 7 white roses. there's a meaning too ;-)

oh! background music. Vivo Per Lei by Andrea Bocelli featuring Gorgia.

we eat, we talked, we laughed, we smiled, we drink, we joked, we stared. at each other.

from Vivo Per Lei...to my most favourite song I'll be by Edwin McCain.

10 minutes before Valentine ends...he proposed. and said many things that you and I can't even imagine.

1 minute before Valentine's over in KK, i said yes.

si mio amore. ti amo anch'io and that is why voglio che ci teniamo in contatto.

He said: I have found the way...everything i'll do, i'll do to meet you one day.

the way in Italian is "la via" in which he said la via is a pefect anagram for Avila. i smiled.

......
.........
............
...............VILA you so lame!!!! oh boy, yes i know that -_-"

sorry but my heart belongs to Enzo from now on. ok thanks bye *wave*

Oh, where have I been?

2006-02-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

i trust the red sun setting
the leafless November trees.
on Monday i look forward
fearlessly to Friday's eve.

but humans are not as reliable
as nature, as trees.
i wonder if you'll come back;
i trust only that you'll leave...
~taken from a book called Hard Love~

this is for someone out there. i wish i have the gut to tell you...*blergh* do you get me?

'the more you talk
the more you get
the sense of something
that hasn't happened yet...'
~Ani Difranco~

hmmm. wake me up when February ends...

Random.

2006-02-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

i was still on bed when Dayze called me in the morning.

met Dayze, Nadia, Nana and Sho at the mall and became a camwhore.

i brushed my teeth longer than i took my shower.

went to the beach and Nadia became a paparazi. nice zoom, Nad.

we played banana boat with a big branch of tree. yes. banana boat.

i drank pure vanilla in Coffee Bean.

i will only drink at Coffee Bean if i am really rich again or when somebody offers to pay.

i feel like cutting my hair short...or maybe re-curling them...re-bonding maybe. hmmm...

i hate wearing glasses but i don't like wearing contacts.

i will send my resume to Kinabalu Park's office tomorrow.

please come online because i'm so dead bored.

ok...Greece or Italy? oh gawd...this is hard.

i love Greece but i love Italy more! more than you can imagine.

i think SEEKERS sucks major.

do you believe in ghosts?

i love Zainal Abidin so much.

i am a loyal fan of Everclear.

i wish you could come online this instant.

i would love to work with the orang utans.

it has been a year since my last visit to an island.

i despise immigrants. PTI!!!

i think i am going to download Memoirs of Geisha.

i have watched The Notebook for the fifth time and cried over and over again.

i want Noah Calhoun as my boyfriend and not Ryan Gosling.

if you're a bird then i'm a bird.

no. i have not study for my driving Q&A test.

Happy Birthday, Neneng! please claim your card at my place ok.

Standard Chatered Bank is a liar. fuck.

i am opening my account in Maybank.

i want to move to Italy.

yes. i am Malaysian. a proud Kadazan i am.

should i change my nationality?

i have very little chinese blood running through my vein.

my Grandpapa is from China.

*gasp* i have relatives in China?!

now i know who sang Fool Love. thanks to Selba.

i saw mom's picture when she was 12.

now mom is...wow...hmmm....50++

my 12-year-old mom looks like me.

people who come accross us calls us sisters.

i am staring at my MSN.

this is very random. this whole things are random

i am not sure when to use this or these.

Stamford College is bullshit. where is your phone call?!

the guy in Stamford College is cute. but sorry i am not interested.

and no Moonshine, i don't like you anymore.

baby-boo you fucking asshole.

don't mind my language. my moods are random too.

oh geez...where are you? *still staring at my MSN*

i am actually hungry. but shops are closed. i guess they are still in CNY mood.

i drank green slurpy from 7-eleven.

my 3rd brother stole 20rm from my wallet.

he would never admit it until i demand a sign of a cross + from him.

sign of a cross with a cross +.

he will pay me this Friday...*i'll put this in my schedule*

oh...he paid me 5rm. so left another 15rm.

i am the most greedy person in the family.

i will hide foods in my room. and i don't like sharing shampoo.

i am kinda choosy when come to spoon.

i will smell the spoon and taste every spoon at home with the tips of my tounge.

no i will not do that in a restaurant.

so i guess you are not able to come online. oh well...*shrugs*

Malaysian Idol 2005 is not suppose to be Daniel nor Nina.

San Francisco has no talanted people.

i don't like Fauziah Latif when giving comments. your comments suck.

Malaysian Idols are so average. but not Jaquline Victor (whatever the spelling is)

ooooo...Happy Birthday dad!

Manukan Island this Friday...wooohoooo!!!

and so i shall swim like a dolphin.

si...ti amo Enzo amore mio. ci vediamo presto!

yeahhhh...finally! my letter landed safely in Italy!!!

il cielo pullula di stelle...

i love quotations from books and movies and from people.

si amore mio, i will send something about tigers in my next letter for your friend Stefano.

send my greetings to Marco and everyone too.

why am i here talking?

my mind is so random.

i want to visit Alba in Teramo. they said, "per chi ci vive poi e un altro mondo, e anche chi viene non vuole andara via..."

the end......

Edit (9.38 pm / 2nd Feb): hahaha...okay. all Italian names (Stefano, Enzo, Marco) mentioned here are taken from a story. so i am actually being part of the character in the story. know what i mean? no....? oh well *shrugs*.

I've been tagged!

2006-01-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

today, i have a new interest. i want to learn magic tricks.

i have been visiting people's blog. and i found pretty interesting activity going on around bloggers. to be honest with you, i don't even know what tag are for. and meme? what's that? it's such a new word to me. but anyhow...i've been tagged by Bren. for the first time! *gasp*

Four jobs you’ve had in your life:

Student (it's a job for me)
Athlete (also a job for me)
Volunteer
Coach

Four TV shows you love to watch:

Whose line is it, anyway?
Oprah
Globe Trekker
Animal Planet

Four movies you could watch over and over:

The Notebook
LOTR (trilogy)
Dragonfly
Disney movie cartoons

Four places you’ve lived in:

Kota Kinabalu
Sandakan
Subang Jaya
Newcastle, England

Four places you’ve been on vacation to:

Malacca
Kuala Lumpur
Brisbane
Gold Coast

Four places you would rather be:

Kota Kinabalu
Newcastle
Bangor
Italy

i love to live in a country-side =)

Four of your favourite foods:

Hinava
Ngau Chap
Pan Mee
Fettucinie Carbonara

Four of your favourite beverages:

Pure Vanilla (coffee bean)
Coffee
Carrot juice + milk
Water

Four websites you visit daily:

studio traffic
backpackers community
zoologist community
Cookies and coffee

Four people tagged:
who wants to be tagged? be my guest. help yourself =P

meme done. meme...i feel weird saying meme. me-me. M-E-M-E. oh well, i just got back from cousin's house. it was lovely. Belle and Jude (close cousin) were there. Jude showed us his magic tricks with cards to which i have develop an interest in it. and all i can say is FANTASTICO!! i was so amazed. sakaiyon!

we gathered around my 76-year-old uncle (husband of my mom's sister) and he showed us albums. and described every photos. photos from the 1950's up to 70's. i saw my 12-year-old mom! she looks so much like ---- me! wow! and uncle kept on asking me to guess which is he in the photos. and he looks sooooooo handsome! for real! if i were in the 50's, i would have fallen for him. and so, Belle and i had decided to make our own albums too. for our grandchildrens. and they live happily ever after. the end.

Gong Xi Nie!

2006-01-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year Eve 2006!

hmmm...let see. ~~Mr&Mrs Paul Chong.~~ Mr&Mrs Stephen. Mr&Mrs Edward. Mr&Mrs Petrus. Mr&Mrs Eric. Mr&Mrs Dominic. Mr&Mrs Ah-Onn. cousin Atin and husband. cousin Alice and husband. Lay Hoon. these are mom's side. and Mr&Mrs Paul Chong and others (can't remember their name since i always call them aunty/uncle) from dad's side. oh...and mom and dad. not forgetting mamatua! let see how many Ang Paus i can collect this year. oh yes, i think i saw the future. i will collect less than 20rm. arghhh.

i remember very well on how i always get 50rm in one red packet. because back then there are less grandchildrens! now since grandchildrens/childrens are increasing and everyone seems to be getting married, Ang Pou money drop lorrr...(=_=") now it's only 2rm in each red packet or maybe 1rm. 5rm is the maximum ody. like this, how to make bussiness...now i can only count on my parents (since i haven't receive any birthday gift =( lol) but anyways, it's a happy season. and so i shall go sight seeing around KK town to admire all those Chinese deco! weeeeeeeeeeeee...

see lar. if i'm lucky, photos will be posted in my next update.

to Jasiminne : wait ahhh...i will post birthday photos.

[ Music | gezzz...i can hear the tung tung chang ]

Student

2006-01-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

Top 10 tips for living on a budget.

1. Open a Student Bank Account - some banks will offer you free stuff and even give you money to open an account with them!

2. Find a part time job to help you get by.

3. Apply for student loan early and have it paid into your account in three instalment, so you don't spend it all in the first week.

4. Don't bring a car to college.

5. Keep track of your outgoings and compare them to your income and give yourself a weekly allowance.

6. If you're looking for text books, visit the second hand shops or ask around; final year students may be trying to get rid of theirs.

7. Get a Student Railcard - it'll make the journey home much cheaper.

8. Cook yourself - don't be extravagant by eating out and always shop around. Some supermarkets have great deals. But remember don't go shopping when you're hungry or you'll have a basket full of things you don't really need.

9. Use your Student Union card for discounts - you don't want to miss out on an unexpected bargain!

10. Avoid store cards - they charge a fortune.

Taken from University of Wales Bangor

The Notebook

2006-01-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

dad : (reading newspaper)Vila, what is invite in malay?
me : ...
dad : Vila, what is (looking at me)......why are you crying???

i cried for real watching The Notebook in HBO channel. i'm definitely going to download this movie and cry again and i want Ryan Gosling for birthday.

Allie : now, say you're the bird.

Noah : if you're a bird, i'm a bird.
~taken from The Notebook~

oh no......not Ryan Gosling. i want Noah Calhoun as my boyfriend. now how many Noah can you actually find out there.

[ Music | I'll be seeing you by Billie Holiday ]

Cookies and coffee @ blogspot dot com

2006-01-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

and so the name Ramli Sarip came to mind. and i can't remember who.

me : dad, do you know Ramli Sarip?
dad : who?
me : Ramli Sarip bah.
dad : Sahip?
me : Sarrrrrip.
dad : no. who's that?
me : *rolled eyes* i'm asking you.
dad : isn't he Nabi Mohd's follower?
me : (=_=")

Nabi Mohd? lol. mom to the rescue...

mom : Ramli Sarip bah. you don't know? the rock singer. Yazeer's idol in Akedemi Fantasia.
me : ooooOOO...ya ya. now i remember.

Ramli Sarip

so i was going through my files. restoring some documents. deleting some documents. and i found this recipe i've been saving in my file for i don't know since when. coffeecup cookies!! yum yum. try this out. for anyone who cares to try. hmm, and no, i can't remember where i got this recipe. and the photos aren't mine. they come together with the recipe ^_^

i) Great Infusions Barista Coffeecup cookie
these are adult cookies - not too sweet and with a mellow coffee flavor. the chocolate chip cookie forms a crispy cup for a moist coffee filling.

yes i know. it doesn't look ___. but it taste good!

Ingredients
1.5 cups of all purpose flour
o.5 teaspoon baking soda
0.25 teaspoon salt
2/3 cup softened unsalted butter
2/3 cup sugar
1 egg
1.5 teaspoon vanilla
1 shot of strong 'ristretto' espresso
1 cup semi sweet chocolate chunks

Step by step
1. Pre-heat 350f oven and butter cookie pan.
2. Sift flour, salt and baking soda.
3. Mix sugar and butter to a fluffy paste, add egg & vanilla, mix well.

4. combine with flour mix.

5. seperate out about 1/5 of the dough and pour a fresh ristretto espresso shot into the smaller portion (mix well - make sure it does not get too liquidy). in the larger bowl - add broken up semi-sweet dark chocolate and mix.

6. form cups with the chocolate chip cookie dough and fill with the coffee filling. leave room around the cookies as they do tend to expand.

7. bake till done - about 10 to 15 minutes. 'cup' should be crisp but not hard, filling will be moist. sprinkle fine coffee grounds and unsweetened coco powder over top.

also try this out. this is nice. i tried before. and i think i'm going to make this one later. hmm...

ii) Creamy chocolate coffee
Ingredients :
1 cup hot coffee
1/2 cup milk
2 tbs powdered sugar
2 scoops vanilla or chocolate ice-cream
whipped cream

Step by step:
1. mix all the ingredients above in sauce pan
2. heat until bubbling
3. serve in mugs with whipped cream

there you go. as easy as ABC. oh and if you don't have any clean sauce pan or maybe don't have at all, you can use a cattle ^_^

[ Music | Deep inside of you by Third Eye Blind ]

Sister Hazel

2006-01-20T10:26:00.000+08:00

Finally I figured out
But it took a long, long time
But now there's a turnabout
Maybe 'cause I'm trying

There's been times, I'm so confused
All my roads, They lead to you
I just can't turn and walk away

It's hard to say what it is I see in you
Wonder if I'll always be with you
But words can't say, And I can't do
Enough to prove,
It's all for you

I thought I'd seen it all
'Cause it's been a long, long time
But then we'll trip and fall
Wondering if I'm blind

Rain comes pouring down
Falling from blue skies
Words without a sound
Coming from your eyes

Finally I figured out
But it took a long, long time
But now there's a turnabout
Maybe cause I'm trying

It's hard to say
It's hard to say
It's all for you

sounds familiar? no? so you never heard of Sister Hazel? oh,well *shrugs*. so anyways, i was cleaning my room and got distracted when i found this very old 'box of wisdom' of mine. dusty nine years old box of wisdom. and there i was again, procastinating. and the room cleaning was delayed as always. so i went through this box and found piles of music sheets, Sister Hazel's lyrics and cassettes. too many cassettes. previous albums of Sister Hazel and others. and i recalled.

i remember being stuck in an airport when i was 11 years of age and i went wandering in this record shop. went through all the racks and somehow i was already holding Sister Hazel second album, Somewhere More Familiar. though i grew up listening to Jimi Hendrix, Smashing Pumpkins, Bob Marley, MC Hammer and the famous macarena, i was not so keen in music back then. i don't even know who Elvis Presley is. let alone The Beatles. not until i bought my very first cassette. my very first Sister Hazel and my interest in music begins. Everclear in the other hand is my most favourite band. both Everclear and Sister Hazel. they play pretty good music. Sister Hazel, you rock! year 1997: i fell inlove with Sister Hazel and Everclear. a year to remember. this is just another random post.

Sister Hazel

The band's members :

Jett Beres - bassist

Ryan Newell - lead guitarist

Mark Trojanowski - drummer

Andrew Copeland - rhythm guitarist

Ken Block - lead singer/acoustic guitarist

[ Music | All for you by Sister Hazel ]

With Arms Outstretched

2006-01-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

she knows what she wants. he knows but doesn't know what he wants. she thought he had ran away. he thought she was hiding from him. he said he will call. and she waited for that call. he said he loves her. but to say 'it' to her face, 'it' never did come out. and she waited and pretended as if it was nothing important. but deep down inside, she was already hoping. and he who says nothing about 'it' pretended as if it was nothing important. but deep down inside he knows he wanted to. and so they pretend. pretending as if the feeling is not there. at the end, both gave up hope not knowing that they actually feels and falls for each other. at the end, they pretend as if nothing had happened.

Its 16 miles, to the promise land
and I promise you, I'm doing the best I can
now don't fool yourself
in thinking you're more than a man
cause you'll probably end up dead

i visit these
mountains with frequency
and i stand here with my arms out
now somedays they'll last longer than others
but this day by the lake went too fast

and if you want me
you better speak up i won't wait
so you better, move fast

don't fool yourself
in thinking you're more than you are
with your arms outstretched to me

~With Arms Outstretched by Rilo Kiley, 2002~

it just came popping out of my mind and makes me thinking. you see, i've told you i've been thinking and wondering alot. have you EVER been in this kind of situation? i know i had. better speak up. better move fast. because you will never know what you will be missing. ahhhh. and si. this song is great. i found out this band myself when i actually spent my time flipping through this rock magazine in Keosk two years ago and i ended up buying that magazine afraid that the cashier might come chasing me out of the shop (i was in the shop for almost an hour with nothing. but wasting my time by going through all the books/magazines). the disadvantage? 15rm gone. advantage? i didn't know that the magazine comes together with a CD featuring new underground rock/indie/alternative songs which i've never heard any of the bands. so that's something to be proud of. i learnt something. and so you too. by reading this, you learnt that Rilo Kiley exists. who is Rilo Kiley? you asked. well, that's a homework for you.

Rilo Kiley

Yes. Paper clips!

2006-01-13T21:23:00.000+08:00

Standard Chatered Bank is very fusy. couple of weeks ago, i opened an account in SCB. i guess this is the most expensive bank ever. for a start, to open an account, i must have 250rm. after that then i can put as much money as i want to. so the lady asked me to fill up form. and somehow along the way she got it all wrong and i have to start all over again. with a new form. she wasn't so friendly as she keep on giving me this high sharp tone of her voice whenever i answered her questions. and that i must have at least above 5000rm to withdraw money from the bank. so anyways, i've banked in my money and she said they will send my bank card and book account to my home address. and couple of days ago, i recieved envelope from SCB only to recieve a resit stating that i've banked in this much of amount, my account number together with the verification number for the bank card. but no book no bank card or whatsoever. just a piece of paper and two SCB flyers. ufff. i hate this. going back to the bank.

and so because of too much of procastinating going on i was having problem remembering the thing i was suppose to do. as i was about to take my nap. i was thinking. and when i woke up, i seem to already be thinking about it. while i was watching TV, it was already there running inside the screen and when the sun sets, it was there in my mind. asking me what was it that bothering me. and sitting down in front of my laptop, i was already being it. the thinking statue. adjusting my hair. i clipped it with a clipper. a hair clipper. clipping it tightly that i make sure the clipper won't fall again for the 517653 times. and yes. because of too much thinking, at last it came to mind. PAPER CLIPS! i was looking for paper clips in my study drawer since this afternoon. too much of procastinating. anyways, i have to go use my paper clips now. till my next coffee break.

2006-01-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

writing 1.4
this is one my favourite writing though it's not mine. i wrote this in my notebook just so i can re-read it again anytime in future. it was written by my brother.

The truth behind it all shall begin here (no date.2004)
not so too long ago, one came to see the light and so began his unended journey of self discovery. one could not remember how it all began, but needless to say it began nonetheless. to remember everything would be pointless, to remember something is something but to remember is priceless. and so remember the one shall.

banana trees come to mind. in abundance they grow. the smell of dirt wetted with morning dews does bring back familiar unfamiliar memories of not so long ago. walking through the thicket of it all was the first memories of life. from then and now, life varies with blotted out pictures here and there, those not blotted thus become priceless to a point unsellable.

why is it so hard to remember? what makes it so hard to remember? how does it happen? only the one knows. so were just forgotten, so just needs prompting by specific events and so were choosen to be forgotten. how could it come to be that one could feel such things then and only wished nothing for one but wished only for all? a penny goes into a well, one wish was made for all to be happy. one was to lead a life of unhappiness, sadness and pain so heavy that only the one could keep and bear +

think about this. ok. that is all.

2006-01-13T14:20:00.001+08:00

writing 1.3
after sometimes i didn't write i prolly found this notebook by accident and wrote this. i guess.

Forget to remember (no date.2004)
time's changing as day past by. sitting here alone up in my room. on my bed, i can't remember the last time i stopped writing in a diary. i guess it was last year...middle or was it the end of year, i haven't a clue. i can't even remember the numebr of diaries i've been writing into...but as long as i know it has been more than ten books and now i'm here...again.

2006-01-13T13:50:00.000+08:00

writing 1.2

no subject(August 27th, 2002)

i don't think i am a normal person. i think i have a mental problem, fantasy and i have a big imagination problem. sometimes i talk to myself...sometimes i'm talking as if i'm talking to someone...through this i've created an imagination that only kids as in little kids know what it is...an imaginary friend. i sometimes call names...a person's name...but who's that person is...i don't even know.

Oh, i wrote that?

2006-01-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

so i was going through my study drawer to look for something (the drawer is full of somethings) and i found many of my notebooks. "very" old notebooks. centuries ago. with something i wrote on them. and so i flipped. page after pages. and so i read forgetting what i was suppose to look for from the very first place. and i went giggling all the way. and somehow it's amazing how giggles suddenly turned into laughter. really laughing. a loud one without any warning. till my right hand automatically banging repeatedly on the study table infront of me and being in a state of not aware on how dangerously i sat, i fell in a "beautiful" pose on my back. and i managed to cry a tear. A tear? i hear you ask. yes, a tear.

writing 1.1

Okay. (no date. 2001)
*i thought you were a friend of mine but i was wrong. everyone knows friends don't do that and i thought you were somebody to trust but i was wrong. you came right over and looked into my eyes. you said the tale were rumours and lies and i wish i could believe in you but i'm sorry to say he told me the truth. friends don't do that, what you did there's no excuse. i'm so confused and i thougth you care about me/myself. but now i know all you care about is you.

*everytime i think i've had enough of you not because i need a friend just because i can't pretend like others do. everyday there's someone else who want to get me, i'm telling you if you know what good for you, love me like before. because soon you can only watch and wonder where the girl you knew has gone and then you realize that everything you did to me was wrong. and...do you really want to lose a friend? you got to understand or it has to end because i don't want to wait for you anymore.

now now...did i really wrote that?? *laughing*...or is it just another episode of cut and paste.

Fatal Frame

2006-01-12T12:42:00.000+08:00

oh...i am so yesterday. i am so "happy" to be the last one to know that Fatal Frame III: Tormented is already out. i am such a HUGE fan. very HUGE fan that i still did not get the chance to finish up Fatal Frame I: Based on True Story. and i am already playing Fatal Frame II: Crimson Butterfly.

this month...this WHOLE month will be my victory finishing Fatal Frame I. i won't skip again. *finger cross*. i've been walking here and there in this game. and i actually accidentally threw up the joystick when it suddenly vibrated. and i screamed. at midnight. anyways...here are some views from Fatal Frame I.

Miku

Miku's brother, a journalist

the ghosts (there are lots...)

interesting? interested? please don't hesitate to play. best play during the night and when all lights are switched off. for more information about these games, visit http://www.fatalframe.com and http://www.fatalframe2.com. no PS2 at home? go and beg =P...buy PS2. hmm...i'm thinking of buying Xbox...(=_=")

Surveys

2006-01-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

i have nothing better else to do. time for you to know about me.
i stole this from animecosplay

7 Things You Say The Most:
1. "oh, okay."
2. "gezzez"
3. "bull"
4. "lol"
5. "damn"
6. "oh gawd"
7. "adakah..."

7 Important Things In Your Room!
1. books
2. bibble
3. candles
4. food
5. guitar
6. pillow. lotsa pillows
7. study table

7 Favourite Drinks:
1. coke
2. pepsi
3. carrot juice
4. vanilla milkshake
5. soya bean
6. water
7. coffee

**************************************************

i stole this from _silent_poetry

WOULD YOU RATHER
1. pierce your nose or tongue?: both as i love piercing
2. be serious or be funny?: funny (my jokes are gettong worst nowadays)
3. drink whole or skim milk?: skim
4. die in a fire or drown?: *touch wood*...this is hard...drown?

ARE YOU
1. simple or complicated?: i'm simple. but complicated when getting to know me
2. Gay?: i'm not
3. Hardcore?: haha...i'm soft
4. Honest?: sure

DO YOU PREFER
1. flowers or angels?: angels
2. gray or black?: black
3. Color or Black and white photos?: black and white. it's very sentimental value
4. lust or love?: love
5. sunrise or sunset?: sunset
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms!!
7. rap or rock?: rock. don't have a heart for rap music. but i listen
8. staying up late or waking up early?: waking up early
9. eating apples or oranges?: both!
10. sun or moon?: moon
11. Winter or Fall?: fall. i love snow though
12. left or right?: right
13. having 10 acquaintances who will have sex with you or having 2 best friends?: haha...i prefer 2 bestfriends...
14. sun or rain?: depends. too hot, i prefer the rain. always raining, i prefer the sun.
15. vanilla or chocolate ice cream?: both! ice-cream is my favourite.
16. boys or girls?: in friendship, both. in relationship, one boy.
17. vodka or Jack?: vodka...hmm

ABOUT YOU
What time is it?: 8.15pm.
Name?: avila
Nickname(s)?: vila

WHAT DO YOU WANT
Where do you want to live?: ~~north borneo~~ sorry. i live in north borneo. i WANT to live in Italy.
How many kids do you want?: 4
What kind of job do you want?: something that i'm interested in doing.
Do you want to get married?: yes. very much.

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits?: my hands sweat and I shake.
2. Are you double jointed?: no.
3. Can you roll your tongue?: *experimenting*...i think i can.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: no.
5. Can you cross your eyes?: i've trying to do this but i can't (=_=")
6. Do you make your bed daily?: not daily...i'm lazy =P
7. Can you lick your elbow?: lol! can you?

CLOTHES, ETC
1. Which shoe goes on first?: right.
2. ever thrown one at someone?: shoe? ah...sure...
3. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet?: <50rm
4. What jewelry do you wear?: earings, bracellet, anklet, necklace

FOOD
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: twirl
2. Have you ever eaten Spam?: sorry. what's a spam? maybe...
3. Favorite ice cream flavor?: vanilla choco! also papermint.
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?: two =)
5. What's your favorite beverage?: juice. but i drink coffee all the time.
6. What's your favorite restaurant?: none favourite. i eat everywhere.

GROOMING
1. How often do you brush your teeth?: 3 times a day
2. How do you wear your hair for the most part?: down.
3. Have you ever dyed/highlighted your hair? yes.

MANNERS
1. Do you swear? yes. everyone swear.
2. Do you ever spit?: yes...i've spitted. and will be spitting again in future.
3. You cook your own food?: yes.
4. you do your own chores?: yes.
5. You got laid today?: yes...i got laid. *tee hee* not.
6. You like beef jerky?: beef jerky? not sure of that. but i LOVE lamb.
7. Pepsi or Coke? coke.
8. You plan on going to college?: yes.
9. You're happy with your hair?: not really. but overall...yeah.
10. You own a dog?: i have a dog. but it's not mine.
11. You spend your money wisely?: yes.
12. You're always making new friends?: yes. i need new friends.
13. You like to swim?: very much
14. Have you ever got bored so you call a friend?: this will be along time ago...
15. You're patient?: yes.
16. You like this survey?: indeed it's consuming.

LET'S BE HONEST.
In the last month have you...
1. Had sex: no.
2. Bought something: yes.
3.Gotten sick: yes.
4. Sang: sure.
5. Been kissed: (=_=") no
7. Felt stupid?: most of the time
8. Missed someone?: yes. i missed people easily.
9. Got drunk?: minor.
10. Gotten high?: no.
11. Danced crazy?: minor.
12. Gotten your hair cut?: no.
13. Watched cartoons?: yes!
14. Lied?: sure!

Last Person that...
1. Slept in your bed: myself.
2. Saw you cry: my brother.
3. Made you cry: my brother.
4. Went to the movies with you: Roy.
5. You went to the mall with: my mom.
7. You went to dinner with: Roy for supper after the movie.
8. You talked on the phone with: my mom.
9. Said 'I love you' to you: Lorenzo on MSN. does that count?
10. Broke your heart: i rather not know who broke my heart.
11. Made you laugh: Lorenzo and Leigh gobuk!
12. Bought you something: my mom bought me new number. lol. always buy me something.

Have You Ever...
1. Wished you were the opposite sex: no.
2. Snuck out of your house: yes ^_^
3. Gave money to a homeless person: to beggers yes.

Photos i captured

2006-01-09T12:41:00.000+08:00

the UK Fun Fair
photos as promised

the Canyon Raft

children on the Merry-Go-Round

Merry-Go-Round

up and down,
Ferris Wheel...
tell me how does it feel,
to be so high...looking down there...

Carnival town by Norah Jones

the top of Ferris
love the lights though it's abit shaky. goosebump. i'm afraid of height.

Horse riders and blue sky
taken at Rasa Ria Resort, Tuaran. i love the horizon
( this is not part of the fun fair =P )

anyways...

My blog is worth $3,951.78.
How much is your blog worth?

there are more of photos i captured. i'll post them next time.
photos are mine. do not steal. or copy.
more to come...

really hmmmmming.

2006-01-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

i never like school. but all of a sudden i missed studying.

i don't like it when people come up to me and ask what do i want to be. i mean, what do i want to be? and then, there you go. decision. again. is the hardest part. yes. i've made my decision. i want to do this! i want to take this!

...but the problem that some of us are facing is that parent never support our decision. and so they go making their own decision for you. why don't you do this? or that? maybe this? how bout that, eh? better for you to take this. because you don't know what you want.

i know what i want. i know what i'm capable of. i know what i'm interested in. i know my weaknesses. i just don't know what do they expect from me. that's hard. very hard. living with parents high expectation. they don't understand. and so i too will never understand.

The not so important event

2006-01-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

signs. fate. destiny. events. an event. one event. life. living. connected. like a river, flowing.

so you find yourself wondering lately. wondering about life. wondering will you ever get that job. wondering will you ever go out with that particular person you like or love. wondering if your relationship will turn out the way you expect it to be. wondering what will happen if you cross that road or buy that shoes or return his/her call or go for holiday or go to that shop instead of the other one or ___. and wondering why you did not.

and so everyone's wondering. you know what fascinate me the most? is by watching this movie on Hallmark Channel (channel 10). it makes me wondering even more. and so i found myself saying, why not...*shook heads*...okay i lost track. *sipping coffee* there are lots of events in our life. there are lots of things we had done, are doing and will be doing. events or event. something we did or about to do, is somehow connected to our lives and thus affect others. and so it goes on, like a river, it flows, like dominoes game, it plays, till it reach to its conclusion. the effect of an event.
you may not be a movie lover. you don't have to be. you may not be a movie liker either. you don't have to. but please, if you have time...please check out your Astro TV Guide. take time to sit and relax. and watch the movie. have a clear picture about life and how it connect to others. such a simple title...BUG...lies a meaningful story about life. my opinion. then again, you don't have to agree or disagree. just watch and think about it.

a particular event that's about to happen may be your series of fortunate event or maybe......your series of unfortunate event.

Goo Goo Dolls

2006-01-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how a person can relate their life with songs. it's amazing how songs can tell the stories about life or people or between two people. it's amazing how words are express in rhyhtm. melody. some of the music i listen is heavy, some is very heavy, some is very artistic and important. and now, at this very moment, i'm relating my emotion with this lyrics:

Stranger than your sympathy
And this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

And I wished for things that I don't need
(All I wanted)
And what I chased won't set me free
(All I wanted)
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees

Oh, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
Take these things, so I don't feel
I'm killing myself from the inside out
And now my head's been filled with doubt

We're taught to lead the life you choose
(All I wanted)
You know your love's run out on you
(All I wanted)
And you can't see when all your dreams aren't coming true

Oh, yeah
It's easy to forget, yeah
When you choke on the regrets, yeah
Who the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
And all these thoughts you stole from me
And I'm not sure where I belong
And no where's home and no more wrong

And I was in love with things I tried to make you believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the dark and all the lies were all
the empty things disguised as me

Mmm, yeah
Stranger than your sympathy
Stranger than your sympathy
Mmm hmmm mmm

i wished for things that i don't need. things that i don't really need. i chased for things that i don't need. chasing until i lost the ending point. and still chasing to find the ending point. when will it end? when will i stop chasing? i don't know. i really don't know. do you know that star, for staring, are stared. belong, the same. i quote that while i was browsing through this very interesting journal belong to an unknown person to whom i may simply called him cat.

think about it.

First post for Year 2006

2006-01-01T11:27:00.000+08:00

i met Beverley and i met Chua Sing Yee and i made a new friend, Theresa, and everything was funny. i love having funny companions. thanks to December 2005.

i received 20rm notes from mamatua for New Year *big smiles* mom is cooking me maggie mee. dad is making me coffee. wahh...so much for New Year. thanks folk!

Theo is coming at 1p.m...rindu sia sama dia. meaning there will be HOT NEWS! Trans Siberian Orchestra is my new obsession. still currently reading Under the Tuscan sun. tomorow i will be sending my resume together with my application letter. also my new year photo =P and hopefully i'll be able to get my skin tone done in Manukan Island next week. i just don't like very fair skin =( and lastly...i just don't know why i'm telling you. well basically i have nothing to do. always. and tonight Theo and I will be going to U.K funfair! i will post photos of it in my next update.

so the word fuck came to mind. when did it come about? and how. what is so special about fuck. Note: It is a requirement that you clear your mind of all dirty and negative thoughts before reading this through. Anything you may think is dirty or vulgar or bad is just simply not true. If you don't want to learn about the history of fuck you may leave. why fuck? why fuck off, fuck you, fuck me...sometimes they insert the fuck word in the middle of a sentence "i am so fucking pissed off" or at the beginning of a sentence "fucking big isn't it?" or at the end of the sentence "isn't that a fuck". *staring at you* okay, i won't consider this blog worth while without you learning something...

Early usage of fuck. Its first known use as a verb meaning to have sexual intercourse is in "Flen flyys" some time before 1500. William Dunbar's 1503 poem "Brash of Wowing" includes the lines: "Yit be his feiris he wald haif fukkit:/ Ye brek my hairt, my bone ane."

Some time around 1600, before the term acquired its current meaning, "windfucker" was an acceptable name for the bird now known as the kestrel. While Shakespeare never used the term explicity, he hinted at it in comic scenes in several plays. The Merry Wives of Windsor (IV.i) contains focative case (see vocative case). In Henry V (IV.iv), Pistol threatens to firk (strike) a soldier, a euphemism for fuck.

...for more please help youself and visit this site http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fuck

there you go, you learnt something.

Invisible link

2005-12-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. before my memory fades...to anyone of you who had linked me...thanks!

you may prolly wonder why i didn't link you. but i did. you may not be able to see my links because it is invisible. well. take care now.

New Year Eve

2005-12-31T19:30:00.000+08:00

i slept at 12 a.m. woke up at 10 a.m. had breakfast. played PS2. surfed the net. and brushed my teeth at 1p.m. or maybe 2p.m. or maybe i didn't brush at all! *eyes wide open* that's because all i do is stay at home and become miss lonely. that is for the year 2005.

i just got back from a wedding. it was great. i met my old classmate and schoolmate. i just found out that my old classmate when i was 13 years old is already engaged. he's cute. great friend. i'm happy for them. i missed the "kampung" style. i guess everyone is drunk. we were dancing around. imagine my dad, my mum, me and all the kampung gang. funniely fun. only if they were drunk. haha!

and so tomorrow will be a new year. a new beginning. i'm looking forward for 2006. i will be reborning again tomorrow.

Resolutions
1. get my photo taken
2. send in my resume
3. go for interview
4. get that job
5. start my job
6. earn money
7. buy a new cellphone

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!!

I.E is a joke

2005-12-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

just hanging around for awhile.

i started to dislike Internet Explorer. i viewed my site in IE and it's a joke.
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Christmas photo

2005-12-27T10:26:00.000+08:00

as i promised a photo. taken in Beff's house :

Theresa, Cassandra, Beverley, Stephenie, Avila

my father is a reckless driver.
i am too young to die.
till my next update.

2005-12-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

well...since it is still December 26th...allow me to speak my mind about...everything that is anything. not that all of you will take time and read my uninteresting post if you may call it. maybe...no one at all. but somehow it is fun reading what you have posted. and so you will prolly laugh and say "did i say that? ooohh..this....ah, those days...i can't believe i actually posted this..." and so you smile and you laugh. alone. like an idiot.

i am actually bored. REALLY really have nothing to do. i wished i go to Roy's. but i bailed him. and i feel bad. and now it is raining. i wish it snow instead of rain. being alone at home...with nothing to do...is a tragic. everyone love leaving me stranded in this bella casa. lo odio! i learnt a new word...the meaning of calcetto is soccer, which is 5 versus 5.

so i am on my MSN...and someone asked me :

"...can i flirt with you?"

can you flirt with me? funny. anyways...i learnt that Tuscany is a region of Italy. and that the most important city in Tuscany is Florence. it is the most famous and important cultural town. and it is the place of Leornado da Vinci, Michelangelo and all reinassance, artistic, poethries, monuments! interesting isn't it.

*sigh* il cielo pullula di stelle. i just have to choose and pick the right one. for some reason i need un segno di Dio. ohhh...and it just struck me now at this very moment. bazatan zou! having to remember that particular night. nokuo ti??! ih feeling zou...? ishh. moluar guangku. okon ko moluor guangku because of somebody has hurt my feelings. tapi sabab ih zou sondiri. i guess i think somehow, you just have to hate yourself so much.

Under the Tuscan sun

2005-12-26T16:26:00.000+08:00

"believing in miracles, i give you my number, who knows it? maybe you can send me a message, or a short call..."

i wish. if only i had a cellphone. but nothing feels better than leg of lamb. a traditional Christmas dish. last night was great. celebrating Christmas in Beverley's and being Mr and Mrs Foo "adopted child". fun. photo will be posted after i get it from Beff. ( for anyone who cares to view. i care. it is indeed priceless. )

anyways, i have alot of books to read. and currently reading Under the Tuscan sun. it is...well...different from the movie. not slightly different. but big different. as it has been said by other readers. but i think both are nice. giving you different angles of the story and i still have four more books to read :

1. Soul Mountain by Gao XingJian
2. Too little, too late by Colette Caddle
3. Much ado about nothing by William Shakespeare
4. Othello by William Shakespeare
...and more to come.

sometimes i wonder why people...if not all, some...don't like reading. they just missed the beautiful journey of every pages...and no. i guess you do not need to be inspired or so to inspire. just by reading, gives out a wonderful sensation of atmosphere. with a cup of coffee...nothing feels better.

~~getting ready to Roy's house.~~
[Edit (6.59pm) : no i am not going to Roy's house. i'm so sorry Roy]

[Edit (7.31pm) : oooo...and a Happy Boxing Day]

Merry Christmas

2005-12-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone
Merry Christmas Everyone

~till my next coffee break~

2005-12-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

why am i here talking?

Christmas Eve

2005-12-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

ah yes...i was wondering and wandering around. up to down and down to up. i wandered and i wandered and so i wandered. we really need new shops. almost every shop sells the same old stuff. and at last. i bumped into him. of all the people. and yes it was nice to see you again. how do you do? *shake hands*

finally i bought Under the Tuscan sun. after walking in and out of five bookstores in town. geez, they really need to open new bookstores here in KK. i think that Iwase Bookstore is the best. Popular is a joke since they are "the biggest" bookstore in town, they should have Under the Tuscan sun. but no. they don't. i wonder wheter they (whoever they are) are going to open MPH since new malls are coming. and i mean a REAL bookstrore selling real books like KL bookstores. ah yes...talk about "are coming". do you know that U.K Fun Fair is coming to town? it's already in town. already putting up and building up all those ferris wheel and others. yeah. carnival is in town. and so i am thinking of swimming tomorow. it's been a long time since my last exercise. i need to build up some muscles after realizing that is the only way i can gain weight other than eating. don't you just hate having high metabolism?

hahaha. my first gift on Christmas Eve is sandals from Neneng. i just opened it. seconds ago. well...till my next break. soon. i have ice cream to finish.

[ Music | O christmas tree by Miles Davis ]

2005-12-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

oh...oh ho ho ho...

if i am so smart, how come i don't know?

thank you, anyways.

thanks to Sing Yee for Trans Siberian Orchestra.

[ Music | Christmas jazz by Trans Siberian Orchestra ]

Why does it happen?

2005-12-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

there are more questions on earth than there are answers. and the world itself is a mystery. history repeats itself. civilized becoming uncivilized. there are more sorrows than happiness. more are dying and so are dead. those survive are left to stay, to live and to witness as the world falls apart. to suffer more than those who had suffered. some say it kills to live. others say it is indeed a blessing to live for another day. the world is corrupting. the earth is trembling. the sea is waving goodbye and the sky is hiding.

*looking up the ceiling*
ever wonder why does it happen? how does it happen? what makes it happen? when does it happen...or when WILL it happen? who makes it happen? and so who are to blame?

it happened because there are reasons to it. things happen for a reason. or is it? what if there is no reason at all. what if it just happen and because it is meant to be happened? is it a sign? maybe. what are signs? what do you know about signs? how do you know? who cares? who cares to search for signs? me? you? does it matter? what if there are signs...but we never look. always we tend to pass by. and so who cares? we are so busy to even care. the world is so busy.

why, when, what, who and how? more questions, less answers...no one knows. no one really knows but He who suffered more and seen everything on earth. only the one knows.

and still, in the midst of everything lies a very interesting question.
is a circle really a circle?

down on my knees. i surrender...i had surrendered...i want to surrender.

Tuscany

2005-12-21T11:04:00.000+08:00

i just realized that Frances Mayes writes beautifully good spoken books about her own self-experience. i beginning to like it. Tuscany. i have always love Italy. it is a perfect book for independent travelers. and so for non-travelers. Under the Tuscan sun...it somehow makes me think about my life, my family...but mostly me. *sigh* i love my mother so much. and my father? he is always away for a week or two and back home for a week or two...then away for a week or two...and...on and on. i missed him. i missed the father and daughter activities. when i was small, my father used to lift me up up the sky. like a bird. and now...he still lift me up but not as high as before. because i am heavy. *sigh* childhood memories...i guess i will always be their little one even when i'm in an adult age. even when i get married and have kids of my own. i will still be their little one...there is a quotation that goes "No matter what happens - always keep your childish innocence - it's the most important thing..."

*sipping coffee and smiles*
i got that from the movie of Under the Tuscan sun. good books good quotations.

Between Austria and Italy, there is a section of the Alps called the Semmering. It is an impossibly steep, very high part of the mountains. They built a train track over these Alps to connect Vienna and Venice. They built these tracks even before there was a train in existence that could make the trip. They built it because they knew some day, the train would come...
-Martini, Under the Tuscan Sun (2003)-

till my next coffee break.

The new beginning

2005-12-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

i wish it snow here. anyways, i've deleted all my entries. so it's holiday. it's the middle of December. and soon it will be 25th.

Happy Holiday and Happy Christmas, everyone.

*sigh*...nothing feels better than a cup of coffee. enjoy your coffee people. till my next update.